It's been a hot hot minute.
I feel as if I've jumped five steps forward in where I thought I would be at this point in my life.
Marrying the man my heart has so very desired to marry for the last four years sure feels "unreal". I cannot believe my name will be changing and so many other things along with it. And the wedding...who knew planning was so exhausting. For me, someone who enjoys planning down to the last minute of everyday, I've found myself just wishing for a week of no planning. No wedding talk. Just life without planning! Don't get me wrong, I'm excited to be able to have a wedding and that in itself is a HUGE blessing for me. But to be honest, I really just want to be married to Damen. And while I've spent four years pinning to a "Dream board" on pinterest of all these GREAT, FUN, over the top and needless ideas...when it came around to me being able to have it all, I just didn't care as much as I anticipated.
I do however care that God has created this fantastic picture of the bridegroom and just how beautiful weddings are to eternity! Honestly, that's something I could talk about all day everyday, pin to a board in anticipation, and GUESS WHAT: when He comes to get what His heart longs for the most on that most important day...it won't be something that lets us down. It will be better than our hearts ever imagined. Not saying my wedding is letting me down..I'm just saying I definitely romanticized the whole idea. Not to mention I appreciate how much work God is putting into the universe just to get His creation to WANT Him. How crazy is that?
He knew me before He even formed me. That's something that blows my mind. He loved me before I could love Him. And one day He will come back. That's going to be my (our) true wedding day.
But in the meantime, I get to marry my love and do this thing called life with him as my best friend by my side daily. I'm thankful God has allowed me to learn just how important marriage is to Him.
I do catch myself more and more often wanting to just see dad and wishing he would be with me on that day to walk me down the aisle, but man, what joy I take in knowing he rejoices daily with Jesus. Jesus has never failed to comfort me, and I fully expect for Him to come in and continue to show me just how BIG His love is for not only me, but this entire and absolutely insane place called earth.
Til next time,
Katie
