Blessings

I don't know about you, but in this last week God keeps reminding me of the things He wants to bless not only me with, but others. Many times in my life has God shown up and blown me away when I needed Him.

This last week, He's reminded me how He's financially provided for me.

There was a time when I was down to negative amounts of money in my bank account and I sat in my room all day and prayed. I cried and wept that I had failed and couldn't pay my bills. While it is still so crazy to look back on, it was a moment of change in my life. I desperately depended on God to provide and pay my bills.

Maybe you're reading this and thinking, "why didn't she ask anyone for help?". Well, I don't have many people to turn to who can, and besides that, I don't like to let people think I absolutely depend on them. It's my job to pay my bills. I have since the day I've turned 18.

So in that moment in the winter of 2011, I was rescued from my anxiety.

I opened my mailbox the day after I had wept and prayed all day. There were two envelopes that had no address, no return label, nothing. Just the name Katie. And on the back of one it said, "Because God told me too." And the other said, "Because someone helped me out once." In both of these envelopes were words of encouragements and checks for exactly my monthly expenses. How GREAT is GOD? I wept for like an hour of just pure joy.

 How very little people believe God can do, but because I put my faith in God that week, I just knew I was going to be okay!

The blessings kept coming in. Checks kept showing up, groceries were bought for me, somehow everything I needed and more was provided for. I got offered a second job within the week and took it. Since then I have learned that a good work ethic, remembering God is in control of EVERYTHING, and being thankful is all I need to survive.

From that moment on, I've never had to look for a job. They've just been offered to me. It's like God was saying, "this way..now turn this way". In every job I've had, a purpose has been revealed to me. In each job, I've been able to talk to people about how great Jesus is. Even if it's just smiling all the time, that's a way to cheer people up!

Anyways, in this last week, I worked 47 hours and moved apartments. To say I was tired was an understatement. Yet, God kept showing up in little things throughout my days. Now my new apartment is done and while I work everyday for the next two weeks, I could not be more thankful to a God who provides, loves, and reminds me that while He is blessing me, to bless others even more.

I'm going to start looking for things I can do to help others like God has helped me. In fact, I want my whole life to point towards that. To remind people how God cares. He really cares for the broken hearted.

This may have made no sense and it's all over the place. But I just hope if anyone who reads this is ever in a place where they feel like nobody can help, turn to God. Believe that He was provide for you, cover your finances, cover your sickness, and watch God move!

He's a powerful loving God.

Til next time,
Katie

You Make All Things Work Together for My Good

When I think about God's big plans, I realize I'm not in control. I can choose to be anxious and really stressed about something He's planning, or I can choose to remember how He would never put me in a situation that wouldn't end up being the best thing for me.

When I lost my dad four and a half years ago, on that day I would have told you I trust God and His plan, but I didn't know what that plan was. No way could I imagine four and a half years later I would understand why it had to happen. To be honest, I'm thankful that it did happen. I know, I know. "Woah Katie is glad her dad is dead!" No. That's not what I mean.

The years I had with my dad were more impacting on my life than any other years. He taught me so much in the few years we had. He taught me how to be best friends with someone who ya live with, how to truly love and take care of each other, and how to have fun without having to forget what I had done the night before. My dad was the best dad I could ever ask for. And he's still my dad. He still takes care of me in more ways than one. He was the perfect example of God's love.

The day my dad died, I leaned on the everlasting Father more than I have ever needed to before. Through that I was taught how comforting the Father's arms are. I was reassured of how much the Father cares for each of us, individually. He loves me like I'm the only person in the world, yet I have all these sisters and brothers in the world that He loves equally as much. He has made it so that each of us has something to offer to this world, to glorify His name.

The Lord has been teaching me this last week how to lean on Him when I don't really need Him. How much more satisfying it is to seek His face when I'm seeking to please the Lord and not to receive comfort from the Father. Peace comes over me, the kind that overwhelms my soul and Jesus is higher in my life than any person on earth. He is all I care about. He is all I look forward to. While I have this blessed life full of laughter and joy with my friends and family, I know at the end of the day, God is my Father and best friend, just like dad.

He takes care of me. He makes all things work together for my good.

How could I ever question God when He's brought me through so much?

Break our walls

The Lord is so mighty.

It's hard to imagine a life that isn't like what I've been doing lately. But I feel God moving in my life. It's funny when we get to a point where we think we have it all planned out and suddenly God says, "That's too small for you. I have something bigger in mind. "

My heart is full of excitement and rejoicing while at the same time it's fearful of how it will all play out. Right now my only focus is to fall completely head over heels with the King and let Him take the lead.

It's such a peaceful thing to let Him be in control. I have absolutely no idea at all what tomorrow holds.. Exactly as it should be.