When I think about God's big plans, I realize I'm not in control. I can choose to be anxious and really stressed about something He's planning, or I can choose to remember how He would never put me in a situation that wouldn't end up being the best thing for me.
When I lost my dad four and a half years ago, on that day I would have told you I trust God and His plan, but I didn't know what that plan was. No way could I imagine four and a half years later I would understand why it had to happen. To be honest, I'm thankful that it did happen. I know, I know. "Woah Katie is glad her dad is dead!" No. That's not what I mean.
The years I had with my dad were more impacting on my life than any other years. He taught me so much in the few years we had. He taught me how to be best friends with someone who ya live with, how to truly love and take care of each other, and how to have fun without having to forget what I had done the night before. My dad was the best dad I could ever ask for. And he's still my dad. He still takes care of me in more ways than one. He was the perfect example of God's love.
The day my dad died, I leaned on the everlasting Father more than I have ever needed to before. Through that I was taught how comforting the Father's arms are. I was reassured of how much the Father cares for each of us, individually. He loves me like I'm the only person in the world, yet I have all these sisters and brothers in the world that He loves equally as much. He has made it so that each of us has something to offer to this world, to glorify His name.
The Lord has been teaching me this last week how to lean on Him when I don't really need Him. How much more satisfying it is to seek His face when I'm seeking to please the Lord and not to receive comfort from the Father. Peace comes over me, the kind that overwhelms my soul and Jesus is higher in my life than any person on earth. He is all I care about. He is all I look forward to. While I have this blessed life full of laughter and joy with my friends and family, I know at the end of the day, God is my Father and best friend, just like dad.
He takes care of me. He makes all things work together for my good.
How could I ever question God when He's brought me through so much?
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